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Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Coming Clean.....

Think It's About Time.....
I have been putting off sitting down and just writing in my blog about what is really going on in my life.  A lot of it is due to pride and the rest maybe fear. 

Since I was young I have battled with some problem or other in my skeleton, whether it be my back, legs or whatever.  It never truly stopped me from being active and playing sports riding like a wild woman on horses or jumping out of perfectly good planes but now it's different,  time has caught up!   

I find myself unable to do the simplest task, like vacuuming or doing the dishes.  I can't stand for more than a few minutes and God forbid that I need to walk anywhere cause I just can't.  For the last two years, since my surgery, I have been battling one issue after another and never really winning the war just the battle.....This war has now taken over the battlefield and rages on.  

Last January I faced yet another life altering dilemma which could only be corrected with massive amounts of steroids.  Needless to say steroids are not my friend for long term use and have given me a whole new set of problems to deal with....not walking is one of them.  I'm trying to keep that proverbial chin up and to think positive but there are times that even with my strong life ethic I find myself falter a bit.  I truly hate having to dump even the simplest task on my already over-worked husband but most of you know we live in a rather remote area of Virginia with no friends or family readily available.....besides I honestly think if my kids were here they would probably put a gag in my mouth , a bag over my head and lock me in a closet cause I would drive them completely NUTS!  I'm not a good patient....

To all those wonderful collectors of mine that have waited ever so patiently for there commissioned pieces all I can say is "someday"....I am no longer taking any more custom work for the time being because  I refuse to disappoint anyone else.  

"Ghoultide Gathering" is still happening even if I have to wheel myself around in a tastefully decorated wheelchair!  Okay who am I kidding it won't be tastefully decorated!   This part of my life is not the end but just a new beginning and like most people with ADD we love beginnings it's the ends we have problems with!  


Vicky said...

Thinking of you and wishing you the best outcome, Pam. You've brightened my life with your patterns and knowledge and I'll forever be grateful!
God Bless you!

Nancy Malay said...

You are facing your situation with such a good attitude, Pam! Life throws some things at us that can be overwhelming, and I know you are a strong, determined woman, who won't let this get the better of you! Love ya! Nancy

Alice ~ Folk Art Primitives said...

I know that always putting on your game face is hard ~ sometimes we have to just be honest and let people k ow you're not felling top notch ~ it's okay ~ we can take it! I hope your 24 hour 'vacation' gives you some relief! Keep the faith, friend ~ we're all pulling for you! In friendship, Alice

Evelyn said...

You and Dan are always in my prayers. Change is difficult, but I'm sure you will find a way to make it all work out for you. Sending you a big hug because I understand it is hard to keep the chin up at times. That's when your friends help carry the load. Love you.

WoolenSails said...

I sympathize with you, since I have had a similar experience and gotten worse over the years, mine from latent lyme. I can get out and walk and do things and I treasure those moment and push myself even on bad days. For me it is how is has effected my mind and makes it hard to finish things and do what I want, so I need to start prioritize what I want to do and create what makes me happy.

I hope you can find a solution for your problems and be able to enjoy pain free days.


Deb~Paxton Valley Folk Art said...

Pam, sending you all the healing energy that I can muster and positive thoughts that you continue to have the courage to deal with this battle. You are an inspiration to so many of us, we love your work but most of all we love you <3 Deb

http://manystitcheslater.blogspot.com said...

My goodness, so sorry to hear about all your struggles, sometimes life isn't fare is it? But we make the best off it. So please hang in there and hopefully whatever is wrong with you will be fixed in no time, I am praying for you. I know it is hard to stay positive, but that would be the best medicine to the road of recovery. Best wishes!

Melissa said...

Although I have never met you, I have enjoyed your FB postings with all your creations. I am going to Ghoultide for the first time this year and hope to meet you. We are given many struggles in life, but I believe God helps us meet those challenges. Stay strong and wishing you good health! Melissa, Colorado.

Lady Locust said...

Keep your heart well and know that you have friends praying for you whom you've never met:)

Lady Locust said...

Keep your heart well and know that you have friends praying for you whom you've never met:)

Kays Kids said...

Hi Pam, Don't let your pride take a dent for being in a wheel chair. I was in one for several years and I don't know why, but I felt ashamed of going any where. I eventually got used to it and it wasn't a problem. Thank goodness. Now I don't need one.
Enjoy Ghoultide and thank goodness you like doing things with your hands.

A Magical Whimsy said...

Hello dear Pam
I have been admiring your creative muse for almost five years now...time flies! I think the first time I saw your patterns was on Pattern Mart and I was hooked, to say the least. Oh my, sweetie, goodness gracious...I don't know why some of us have a harder row to hoe than others. I believe I am suffering from Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, but by comparison I have nothing to complain about with what you have been going through. And by gum and by golly DO go to Ghoultide Gathering! Come hell or highwater! Your creative muse brings such joy to your followers!
You are an inspiration~
If you don't already have someone else helping you out once a week with normal house work you need to get someone to help around there...for both of your sakes. Just a thought...
Teresa in California

Anonymous said...

My dear softee friend....I don't know what is going on with you physically but I so empathize. I so know how it is to feel like you just cannot move but your brain can keep going. And how much it stinks that you cannot do all that you once could or do the things that you want to do. I truly understand...I find myself at times daily or by minutes making lemonade out of the lemons life seems to hand me. It is hard but somehow I step through each day with a smile and my humor ready for what the next day will bring just as I know you do the same. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your hubby. Please take good care of yourself. AKA...Curly
Your friend, Lynn :-)