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Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Cancer is Just a Six Letter Word.....

The Ol' Softee Says.....

That the "proverbial" cat has leaped from the bag and is out in cyber world now....I might have cancer! Though the first knowledge we had was not good it seems there is a HUGE light at the end of that spiraling tunnel of life, my tumor is contained and looks like it has not spread anywhere! As many of you know I had entered that "demon world" of dieting and actually was doing very well when one morning I woke up with severe abdominal pains and Dan took me to emergency. What we thought was probably a gall bladder attack from the heavy protein diet ended up being a tumor the size of Rhode Island nestled securely around my left ovary. This little invader had kept to itself and gone totally un-detected till now. After a couple of morphine shots and a visit to the Cat Scan I realized that my hitchhiker was as big as a cantaloupe and weighed somewhere in the vicinity of 11-13 lbs...YIKES! No wonder I felt like "puppy poo" and hurt like acupuncture gone awry! I was carrying around something the size of a baby and this one loved to kick......After being told that the chances this tumor, lets call it BUD, is malignant my first response was.....give me drugs I have Ghoultide in 10 days I promise to deal when I come back. Of course Dan stepped in at this moment and said....not if it will shorten your life....well needless to say it didn't and I was at Ghoultide with the serious help of drugs and now arrangements have been made for the removal and recovery of BUD! I will be going into the hospital October 13th for what they are calling "serious" surgery, the tumor will be extracted, dissected and analyzed while I lie in bed a few pounds lighter. I keep trying to bribe the doctor to remove some extra fatty tissue or give me a waist but she's not having any of it! Darn! Keep me in your thoughts everyone cause this Ol' Softee can use all the support and energy she can muster. If you don't see me around on line much it will be because I'm either high as a kite or sore as a stubbed toe with a hang nail! Just be patient my "Softee friends I will be back with a song in my heart and a bandaid over my mouth to keep me from singing said song! Nothing gets this "hot mama" down for long! Cancer is only a six letter word....but Fear, now that's four and you know what they say about those four letter words...Bad Kitty! Carolee Clark will be my go-to friend....questions go to Carolee. You can find her on Facebook. I have a week to clean my house and get my blog sale together....Wish me oodles of luck!

50 comments:

Stacey said...

Many Hugs to you my dear friend. I am sending lots of love, healing energies and a cyber mug of tea...just like we had at the kitchen table at my house. I know you will get thru and make us all a little wiser with your amazing insight and ability to cope thru Bud...oh and I'm glad you gave him a name!
Lots of Love...
Stacey

Kathi said...

Pam, you are truly amazing! I know your positive outlook and love of life will heal all that ails you. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. ♥

Zan Asha said...

Oh my stars! Pam, I was just coming to congratulate you for the PRIMS publishing, since I was happy to find myself there too! I am so sad to find this news instead and I wanted to say that you are absolutely amazing and this is but a small set-back, because you will kick this things booh-teh!! Know that you have so many friends and fans rooting for you and you will do what you do best, SHINE on!! Big hugs, and speedy healing and let us know if you need anything from us!!

HUGSHUGSHUGS! Zan

ItsMeMom said...

Dear Pam,

I am and sending good thoughts and prayers for you. You will beat this, you're a tough mouse!

Sincerely,
Colleen

Deborah Adams,Long Beach, California. said...

Oh my gosh Pam! Dang if you're not where I was a year ago. If you want any info on what I've been doing Alternatively, I'd be happy to share.
I still have the little "surprise" mousie that you sent me as a get well, so I think of you often and will be sending positive thoughts and healing energy your way! Remember these important words.. "Fear knocked at the door...Faith answered, and no one was there".
Hugs!! ~ Deb
Possible Impossibilities

Theresa said...

I'm thinking of you!!! I know you're a strong gal and you have a wonderful hubby to help you through this.

Rebecca said...

So sorry to hear that you have to take this detour in life's crazy journey. Seems like you have the right attitude and that means so much. Wishing you all the best for a speedy recovery.

pywackit said...

You are such an inspiration to me. Your amazing positive attitude is something the world needs more of. Sending you much love and healing thoughts dear one. You will be in my thoughts and in my heart.

Blessings
Cindy

Judy Mathis said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you. You have a great attitude.

Nancy said...

Oh Pam...I am stunned by this news. I know that the doctors will get that tumor out and you will be fine and healthier for it...

My thoughts and prayers are with you and Dan as you travel down this new, albeit, not so welcomed journey.
Love the name, Bud! Too funny...

Wishing you the best. I'll be thinking of you. Take care.
Hugs and love,
Nancy W.

lilraggedyangie said...

Well my talented friend , you are such an AMAZING woman , you are dealing with this far better than I could imagine attempting , but your a fighter and strong , keep a prayer in your mind , and a song in your heart , Bud doesnt stand a chance ! Im hear if ya need an ear , and will keep you in my prayers ! hugs lilraggedyangie

ButtonBears&Raggedies said...

I hope all goes well for you your are in my thoughts and prayers.
I love your blog and read it quite regularly, you always make me smile. Keep being positive.
God Bless
Bev.xx

CRAFTY STITCHERS said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you. I am a cancer survivor and you will be too. Keep positive thoughts and your sense of humor. Good luck! Will be thinking of you.

Evelyn said...

Oh Pam ... sending you such warm big hugs. I will keep you in my prayers. - Evelyn

Cheryl said...

Here is a big hug for you, my friend. I wish only the best for you and you can rest assured that we are all praying for your fast recovery. God will bring you through the valley and to the mountain top to sing his praises..we want to hear you sing!! Blessings..~~pRiMRaGGz~~Cheryl Sinclair

TheCrankyCrow said...

Oh dear Pamela - so sorry to read of this news. But Bud has met a mighty and worthy warrior in you, I know. Sending prayers for healing and stamina - and for comfort and strength. You will be in my thoughts. Now go kick Bud's butt!! Hugs ~ Robin

Lorraine said...

Pam, I will definitely be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers..take care! xoxoxo

Kays Kids said...

From down under, I'm wanting to let you know I am praying for healing,health and love to surround you. With all the best wishes for you,and your wonderful spirit, I'm sure all will be well.
Hugs
Kay

Woolly Lott Rugs said...

Hi Pam, Gosh I can't tell you how much I have thought of you while you're on this diet. Well on the positive side of this you'll lose 11-13 pounds real fast by getting Bud out of there. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Take care of yourself and get lots of rest. Keep that positive attitude too!! I'll be thinking of you.

hugs
cyndi
xo

Alice ~ Folk Art Primitives said...

One of the things I love about you, Pam Gracia, is your honesty and forthrightness!!! You are something and I'm with you ~ get Bud out of there and get on with the job of living! Bless you and bless your husband ~ I will be praying for you every day and sending you light and love across the airwaves!! Hopefully, someone will keep us informed! Good luck on housecleaning and your blog sale ~ don't we think of the craziest things in time of turmoil!!!! Be strengthened by all of your friends who care about you!! Fondly ~ Alice
By the way, that picture of you is beautiful!!!

The Old Cupboard Door said...

I hate to hear this has happened, but so glad you found it before it had spread. Your positive attitude is inspiring.

~willa~

WoolenSails said...

Pam,
I am sorry to hear about it, but glad you caught it. I have heard of a few people with large tumors like that and it was not malignant, so I am praying that yours will just be a mass of cells and they remove it all. My thoughts and prayers will be with you as you travel this new journey.

Debbie

Marcy said...

You are quite the W-O-M-A-N!!!!! I wish only the best outcome for you. You take care, do what the doctor says and get well. Your health is what's important, you remember that. Your followers will be here when you are ready to return to our Soft hugs!!!
Marcy

Deb @ Crows on the Cupola said...

Pam,
I have no doubt in my mind you will be back at it very soon. You are such an inspiration! You are such a strong willed person and your positive attitude about kicking this thing in the butt is the best! I will say a prayer for you!
Big Squeezy Hugs,
Deb

oldecrow said...

With all the love, prayers and good energy vibes being sent your way, I'm sure you will breeze through the surgery. There is a lot to be said for the power of prayer. I will be praying for a successful surgery and a quick recovery!
Good Luck!
Wanda
Olde Crwo Mercantile

Ahl Cooped Up said...

Pam, Ive been there done that! I was 44. It wasn't fun going through instant menopause and the major surgery, but all was well. My tumor was stage one and hadn't spread. I wish you well and will be thinking about you. You will do well. Your attitude has a lot to do with your recovery..
Hugs,
Pat

The Olde Country Cupboard said...

I am so sorry hear that. I was diagnosed last year with Cancer also. Mine was Lymphoma. I know how feel when you hear that word. Hope all goes with your surgery. take care and I will checking your blog for updates.
sandy

Joanna said...

I am sending positive thoughts and prayers for you.Wishing you all the best for a fast recovery.

Sheryl Parsons said...

I'm throwing my prayers in as well. May all go well and wishing you to be cancer free soon!
Hugs,
Sheryl

Raspberry Lane Primitives said...

I knew you were a tough cookie Pam! My thoughts, prayers and blessings are with you....patti

julieQ said...

I will be praying for you as you are kicking "Bud" to the curb! Peace and joy and a good recovery to you!

Robin at The Primitive Hutch said...

Pam, I've been thinking about you ever since we talked at the show. (I love my pumpkin pinkeep by the way!!!)
I hope and pray everything goes well for you. Please be strong my friend and kick that old Bud in the butt!!!
Prim Blessings
Robin

P.S. I will send you that picture ~ but I did post it on my blog if you want to check it out!

Cat Nap Inn Primitives said...

well holy cow Pam..you sure know how to grow them tumors..but so glad they found and are getting rid of it..will keep you in my prayers for a speedy recovery,:)

jenclair said...

Thoughts and prayers heading your way!

Carolee said...

Hugs, and prayers for the speediest recovery ever!! :)

~ Carolee

Jacqueline said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you. You have a great attitude and that is half the battle. I just came off chemo for colon cancer and go for testing next month. You hang in there.

Jean @ Prim Crafts said...

Thoughts and prayers are with you Pam. You will surely kick Budd's butt and be back to creating your wonderful creatures soon.
Blessings,
Jean

The English Romantic said...

lots of thoughts and hugs flying across the Atlantic in your direction. Will be thinking of you.
Smiles across the miles, Angela.x

Prims and Annies said...

I had one of those in 1981..mine was the size of a large orange..never felt any real pain except when I would bend over to get something off the floor I could feel pressure. Mine was discovered through my yearly exam...it was begine...I am praying that you get the same result.I had the right ovary, tube and appendix removed.
Take care
Maxie

Patty said...

Pammie, I'm so sorry to hear this news, I'll surely be praying for you. Let's wait and see and hope for great news <3. Hang in there sweetie okay?

Jessica Marie said...

You're so brave. It's great to see your humor is still unfaltering - that will make your recovery so much faster and easier. I wish you the absolute best and have faith that everything will turn out great for you. Keep your head and spirit high. <3

A Magical Whimsy said...

Hello, Pam
This is so strange. I am hearing of more women developing tumors in the abdomine. May you do well with your surgery. I have admired your creations for about three years. You are one very talented lady!
Hang in there, sweetie!
Teresa in California

LuLu Kellogg said...

I have been gone for a bit and am now just getting around to catching up on everyone's Blogs. Hang in there Pam...I am sending you lots of love and good thoughts! I went through breast cancer and chemo after that so I will be praying that you come through with flying colors!

Love,
LuLu~*xoxo

softinthehead said...

Thank you everyone....all of you mean so much to me and for you to take the time to give words of comfort and encouragement make you that much more special. As time gets closer to slice and dice I'm beginning to show signs of nervousness. I pray the gown covers my rather large arse and that my quirky sense of humor will remain in tact....and please make sure the knife is sharp....nothing worse than a dull knife in the hand of an uptight doctor! Here's to better days ahead!

Newcastle Inn said...

Hello Pam!

I know that your incredible sense of humor and facing Bud head on will get your through this.

Sending you prayers and love from MidCoast Maine!

Julie

Anonymous said...

I don't know you and I only found your little company on fb tonight but I want to tell you that you are in my prayers and I know that you will come out of this just fine but with one less ovary! The doctor's these days can do this stuff in their sleep and with your sense of humor...well lets just remember...laughter REALLY is the best medicine! Good luck my Dear...XOXO

Monkey-Cats Studio said...

You know we all love you, and my father is laughing in heaven right now thinking how sweet it was of you to name your tumor after him-HA!!! Sending you healing thoughts Pam!!!
Laurie

Barefoot Primitives said...

You'll be in my prayers sweetie. I enjoy your creations and most of all your sense of humor...sounds like you still have that too, my dear! ;o) Blessings to you and your family - Debbie

Sandi @ The Primitive Skate said...

I am a follower and read your Blog, but don't always leave comments. So sorry to hear this. My thoughts and prayers are with you! Wishing you a speedy recovery.

Robin Armstrong Seeber said...

oh my dear Pam, I only just fount this horrid news out! You sound positive and strong,that will be a big help for your recovery. Know that you are in my thoughts and prayers every moment ! big hugs to you...and of course if there would be anything I could do, don't hesitate to ask!