The last few months have proven to me that if I keep putting one foot in front of the other that eventually I will get to the top of that proverbial mountain...I just had no idea how tall the mountain is! This last week has been an incredibly tough one for Dan and I having to say good-bye to our dear Casper. Some probably wonder how anyone could grieve so long and hard as we're doing over the loss of a fur-buddy? 
To all of you that wonder this I say "you need a fur-friend". Their unconditional love and devotion is uncanny and if you open your heart to this you only become a better and richer person from doing so. Casper not only left his mark on my heart but he left his paw print on my soul. I have never loved a fur friend like I did him, this is a tough blow and one that keeps me misty eyed and unable to function at times....I know time will heal and I will stop looking and waiting for him to appear but right now it hurts! I have decided that I need to work.....so I have thrown myself into Halloween, something that I truly love. I'm not an extreme Halloween person, one who loves the horror and gore....I'm a warm fuzzy nostalgic Halloween person. I like ghost stories, witches on brooms and the occasional black cat. I'm trying to come up with a theme for "Ghoultide Gathering" this year....last year it was mice and pumpkins not sure about this year but cats are looking good! I had a great success on EBAY with my 3 witch mice so I have decided to try something else, hopefully it will go up tomorrow night (Tuesday). I am wa-a-a-a-a-ay behind on orders so I am taking some time off from the "Marketplaces" with hopes of getting caught up. Each day I manage to get through and make some progress with my work is a good day. I just keep plugging along with hope that the road up that mountain will get shorter and shorter....someone once said that this is just a hill and that the real mountain lies on the other side...WILL SOMEONE PLEASE SHOOT THEM!
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Oh, Honey, I am sooooo sorry about Casper! I would be a train wreck too if I lost my beautiful Smudge kitty. Bless your heart, I so wish I could do something to ease your pain somehow.
I love Halloween too, I think about it most of the year. I have a great scar on my neck that is more visible now that I have lost some weight( 130ish pounds--I am in a plateau and it is bouncing around a bit) and I am really psyched about blooding it up for this Halloween!!!
You and your hubby are in my thoughts!!
Will you get another kitty? They do have amazing healing skills, you probably know that. Seems unfair that we are meant to outlive our precious fur-babies.
XOXOXOXOXOXOX
Landon
I still miss the kitty I lost two years ago. He got out by accident and I never found him. I do not like to think about the bad things that could have happened, so I just don't think about it;) Some kitties just stay with us, in our hearts.
Debbie
Pam,I am so sorry for your lose of sweet Casper. Getting teary eyed here especially with the music on your site. I can tell Casper was a very special kitty. The last 2 years I've had to put down 2 cats. It never gets easier.
Hugs,
Tammy
Most of us have fur-pal stories ~ it is so hard to part with our pals. For months after my dog, Floyd, went to dog heaven, I would 'hear' his license around his neck jingle ~ it was just like he was out of my sight and would be coming around the corner! They are always with us ~ I like to think that!! Take care ~
I too have lost many a furry friend and it never gets any easier, but one thing that I have always trusted in is that they are never truly gone. They live on in our hearts and the one day will come that we get to be reunited with them all.
Quick story that happened a few days ago. My nephew, he is 8 yrs old, was walking with me at the hospital where his sister was just born. He happen to ask me about how Bear, one of my dogs, was doing. I told him he is awesome. He then asked about the other one, Whisper, and then ask how Smokey was doing. I hesitated due to having put Smokey down months before, and then realized my brother hadn't told him. I looked down at him and said she was in puppy heaven. He said, "Oh, why?" I explained about her age and disease. He then said... kinda sadly, "I don't know if there is a puppy heaven." I then said "It's the same as our heaven, I just tend to call it that." Excitedly he said "Oh! then I will get to see Sadie again." Sadie is his own dog.
Him saying that at such a young age cemented what I have always taken comfort in... I hope it helps you too.
Pam,
I am truly heartbroken for you. It sounds like Caspar was a true friend and companion, a soul friend. I have found relationships with cats/pets to be some of the truest, most honest, and most meaningful that a person can have. Those of us who have cat children are truly blessed.
But the loss of one creates such a hole in one's psyche and one's life.
Do whatever you need to to get through this very difficult time. One day at a time. Sometimes a morning or afternoon or an hour at a time. Stay busy. And, know that there are many of us sending love and healing energies to you. I definitely agree with Alice--our beloved cat and dog and pet children are always with us. But it's so hard when we can't see them or touch them anymore. I grieve for you, sweet Pam.
Please take care. Many gentle hugs from,
Cindy
Hi Pam,
I'm so very sorry to hear of the loss of your precious Casper. :( I have been loved by and loved many fur-babies in my life so far... and they are all wonderful, unique and special... but there are always those ones who leave special imprints on our hearts and souls. I send much love and many healing vibes for you as you grieve the loss of your sweet little friend.
Looking forward to seeing glimpses of your creative endeavors!
Cheers,
Dana
Our 4 legged fur babies are the BEST, aren't they! Our Simba is still with us after 15 yrs... which is like 77... this 'ol yeller tom has arthritis and probably just dreams of all the things he used to chase now. I'm so so sorry about Casper sweetie. They are special friends indeed! Blessings ~ Debbie
Hang in there! I still miss my Artic kitty,, which by the way looked just like Casper,, it was a shock to see his pic,, they could have been twins. I still sence her sometimes, curled up behind me on my sewing chair!! Your memories will keep you warm, and the smile will come when the hurt lessens a little!
Sending you comforting Ontario Bear hugs!!
Sue @
bearsami.com
Thank you all so much for your kind words and wisdom....We have two other kitties, both were rescued from rather awful circumstances and have been with us for 13+ years but Casper was my gentle giant and my love. I still wait for my morning head bonks and loud purrs....time will heal all. Thank you again for your much needed compassion and comfort.
Pam, I'm getting caught up on your blog. I'm so sorry to hear about your kitty, Casper. I know how you feel and it will just take time before you do not cry at every little thing. We lost our Miss Peggy 5 yrs ago, but we still miss her. We buried her in a giant flower pot with a double delight rose bush (we didn't want to leave her if we ever move). I always think of her and feel closer to her when I pick the beautiful roses. We also have several other kitties, all of them with their own personalities, and each so different. My heart is sad for you and your husband and I'm sending you hugs,
Sandy
Hello! Yours is definitely one particular style, and really nice!
From today I am your fan too, so you can watch.
If you like, you can do the same thing.
I like it.
Hugs!
My lucky.
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